It wasn’t that long ago in my life that my body was my own. It was mine to pierce and tattoo. It was mine to pickle with gin. It was mine to move in the modes I chose, to repose however I wished. My hair was mine to dye, to cut and style how I [...]
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True To Form, I Never Think Things Through
When the good Doctor and I first started dating, I was determined that ours would be a relationship of equals. I had just come out of an abusive relationship that put me through a tremendous amount of pain, suffering and degradation (and not even the fun kind). I had been raised to believe that partners [...]
Quiet Horrors
Today I found out that a former play partner of mine, an abusive jackass (not to me, although I know he was to at least one other girl) and all-around fuckwit, is promoting himself on Fetlife as “a natural Dominant”. I blanch a little each time I think of it. He’s apparently got himself an [...]
If Last Night Were A Music Label, It Would Be Called Sub Drop Records
Last night’s session was not as long or intense as I had been anticipating, so I honestly believed that I would be fine afterward. We did our usual snuggling on the couch and I thought that was all I needed. How wrong I was. I was feeling peckish and went to make popcorn for us [...]
Like light as water on a kitchen floor
I’m feeling very still right now. I don’t feel composed or peaceful or resigned, just still. Still like light as water on a kitchen floor. Still like a frozen moment. Still so something just barely forming inside of me doesn’t shatter. I don’t know what it is. All I know is the effect it’s having [...]
Unsorted Thoughts
I’ve been pottering about today. It’s a pottering sort of day. After dropping First off at school I let Second walk all the way to the grocery store, which is something I usually don’t feel we have the time for. Hey, she has short legs and gets distracted by everything – sticks, leaves, planes passing [...]
BDSM, Taken In Hand, DD and me
I was reading an old discussion at http://sfbdsm.tribe.net regarding http://www.takeninhand.com earlier this evening that really started me thinking. There seems to be so much compartmentalization in the way people identify: DD adherents swear that Domestic Discipline has nothing to do with BDSM, Taken In Hand couples frequently decry BDSM as being a wealth of unsavoury [...]
Funny Thing Happened On The Way To Getting My Ass Paddled
Hm. Wouldn’t you know it, it turns out that actually talking to the Doctor about my concerns and fears is considerably more effective than bratting for days on end. Who would have thought it? Apparently not me, at least not soon enough to save myself a world of discomfort.
Such a little girl sometimes
I pushed the Doctor too far again today with my teasing and tickling fingers and general impertinence. I know I’m going to get paddled for it. Probably for quite a long time and probably quite hard. This is in addition to the corrections I’ve already earned myself today (I think just crossing my legs, but [...]
No Clever Title Today
Bah. I earned myself so many corrections today it was barely worth counting them. Forgot my reading, late dinner (!), knees touching (!!), general impertinence… I’ve certainly had better days. Tonight the Doctor said he wanted to skip our weekly maintenance session and simply do my corrections as quickly as possible. He said this because [...]
